Currently Reading The Barbarian Way: Unleash the Untamed Faith Within By Erwin Raphael McManus see related

So let me just tell you about Sunday. I had to work Sunday. Actually it was my last day. If you can recall, it was rainy and crappy outside, so of course, there was a party of about 150 - 200 ppl there. Luckily it ended at 6, so everyone left, which means I can leave:).

BUT.... these two kids emerge from the frickin woods when I was about to leave and decide to swim. They're probably about 13 or 14. One's a pretty boy, the other one reminds me of a Weasley twin. So since I take my job seriously, I grabbed my book and sat outside of the guard shack and started to read while they swam.

While I was fully emersed in "More Than a Carpenter" (VERY good book, you sould read it), one of those squishy, spongey, "catch" balls smacks into the wall to the left of my head. What? Pretty boy was laughing pretty hard, and he actually asked me to throw it back! .....So I did. Ha.

Out of confusion, I went into the guard shack for a minute and turned around to see pretty boy holding his squishy ball! Whats this kids problem? Not sure of what to do, I shut the door and looked out the window. Right as I did that, he whipped it at the window, drenching most of my face. Hm. Pretty pissed now. As i shouted negative-sounding threats, the kid comes into the guard shack with his ball!!! I grabbed the nearest thing to me, which was a stool and started....thrusting .. it at him. Of course that wasn't the best defense mechanism, so once again I got drenched. Fuming, I decided its time to leave early. They told me I wouldn't. Oh, I did.

And as I was walking away to my car, I look behind me to see Pretty Boy sprinting at me at full speed. Seriously-- WHAT DO YOU DO???? In this situation, what do you do??? You either stand there in complete confusion and get ambushed, or you run. So I ran. I took off. My flip flops flew off somewhere. I remember shouting out things like "WHO ARE YOU? I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU! WHATS WRONG WITH YOU? LEAVE ME ALONE? WHY?" There were two families sitting at a picnic table watching all of this. He evetually caught up to me where the remaider of my face, hair, and sweatshirt was soaked. I wanted to kick him in the balls. (Am I allowed to say that on xanga?) But I didn't. I was going to 707 within the next half hour, I was mad.

So thats the conclusion to that story. I never did seek revenge on Pretty Boy.  But God deals with the unjust. Just kidding.

So me and my wet, wrinkly hair went to 707 with Lain and Jessica. it was a baptism service, and 17 people got baptized! They couldn't even fit everyone on stage. It was cool. Then, at the end of the service, Dan gets up there and says if anyone there is a follower of Christ  and hasn't gotten baptized, come to the stage. There was a long pause and then about 50 people came to the stage. It was amazing. They didn't have time to share their testimonies, but they all got baptized right then. The worship band started playing songs at random. People kept going up, there was eventually about 100 people who got baptized. None of the songs were planned, but it was the best worship expirience I've had in a long time. People were all up to the stage, jumping around and dancing. Then the fire alarm went off, and everyone just kept singing. It eventually turned off, and everyone just cheered. Hah.We were there till midnight. 

Currently Watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Two-Disc Special Edition) (Harry Potter 4) see related

Hello, everyone, I'm still alive.

Here's a quick update.

Where do I begin? College was fun.Really fun, but I'm so glad to be home.

I probably have the easiest lifeguarding job in the world. I basically lay in the sun all day and get paid. But I have some killer tan lines, since our bathing suits almost come up to our necks. They're pretty ugly. Yesterday a little boy almost drown, but another guard rescued him.

And speaking of work, my lake flooded a while ago, so they had to drain it and refill it, so they shut it down for a week. This means I got to go to the Outer Banks last minute with Alyssa, Eliz, and Charney! Yay! It was very fun. See pics on facebook.

My mom is getting married sometime next year to Dan Nolen. They met in April through speed dating. haha. He's cool, I like him. And I'll have a step-brother, Alex, who's 13. He's also a dwarf. I've never seen my mom so giddy in my life. She acts like shes 12. When she gets really excited, she does this crazy dance where she jumps around and squeals.

I almost went on a summer project this summer with Campus Crusade for Christ to Macedonia (the country) but I decided against it. It was a ROUGH descision. But I'm going to New York instead.Last March I auditioned with 500 other people to go to a convention in New York called IMTA. IMTA is basically a week of competitions, auditions and seminars for acting, singing, dancing, and modeling. I'm going for acting. I have  7 acting competitions and 1 singing competition (i'm singing Reflection from Mulan). I'm so EXCITED! I leave July 23rd for a week. I'll be competing in front of thousands of people, including about 400 agents from around the world. eek. This means theres a possibility that I get a callback from one of them.... but we'll see....  I really believe this is where God wants me this summer. It's unbelievable how He provided the money for me to go. I'm beginning to freak out about it, about all of my lines being memorized, all my outfits have to be organized, I have to find money for food, I still have to staple my resumes to my headshots, blahhh..... A week from today I'll be there.....PRAY FOR ME guys!!!! PLEASE! 

I hope people still come to my site....eh heh.

PS. I auditioned for another commercial. This one's for the Ohio Lottery. Lets keep our fingers crossed. Odds are, I'll have fun ;)

GUESS WHAT?

I'm in a COMMERCIAL! And a MUSIC VIDEO!

So I was in my lighting lab a few weeks ago with the theater kids just sittin there with my wrench, cuz I don't know how to hang lights. They were all talking about this audition that was going on right then, but nobody really knew what it was for. So me and my friend Holly decide to go and audition anyway.

We went to this small room, filled out a piece of paper, they took my picture, and I left. I had the option of improv dancing to this crazy hip hop song in front of a bunch of strangers, but I didn't do it. Holly did, cuz she's a sweet ballerina.

So the next day I was checking out the Call Board, where all the auditions are posted. I found the one I did yesterday. Apparently, I had just auditioned for a commercial and a music video that was going to be on MTV, VH1, BET and ESPN. WHAT? I had no idea.

A few days later I get a call. This girl says they want to use me for the commercial! They're shooting it at a bar in Akron, the Harry Buffalo, and I had to wear "club attire." haha. Getting there was a nightmare. It was dark and snowy and every frickin street in Akron is one- way, so I got sooo lost. Hah I tried to parallel park on this sreet an half my car was hanging out, but I was so frusterated I didn't care. I was walking around Akron in the dark, in the snow, in heels, looking for this bar, talking to some black guy on the phone who was giving me directions..... bah.

I finally got there and there was like 20 ppl there. We had to squeeze together on the floor and dance. I didn't know anyone, and there was no music, so it was kind of awkward. They kept moving the camera all around, so at some points I was front and center, and sometimes, you could maybe see the top of my head.

The commercial was for Hot Cards, this company that makes posters and cards for concerts and events and suff.

So I thought that was the end of it. Little did I know....

About a week later, I get another call, saying they want me to be an extra in a music video. Why, sure! So  I had to be at this building (the building my psychology class is in) at 8:00 am on Saturday.

They told us to wear "business attire, black pants, etc." When we got there they told the extras we were gonna be in a runge rocker scene, so nobody had anything to wear. We looked kinda funny.

Our scene was gonna be shot in this dressing room that had clothes and candles everywhere. We sat in that room for HOURS waiting for our turn. It was kinda like a reality show, putting 10 people in a small room for hours. We had dance parties, one kid, an art major, was drawing pictures of us, and the manager of the music video came up with his video camera to tape our talents. Some danced, some sang, some did monologues. Funny. So while we were waiting, I was thinking about how funny I looked in a tanktop and gray dress pants. So I looked throuogh all the random clothes in the room and found a denim skirt. hah. It fit, but it was a black girl skirt, so the butt was huge.haha.

It was finally our turn, and we had to make a mosh pit in the middle of the room. Very fun. I was also in a scene where a huge crowd was running toward the security guards, front and center, baby. The last scene I was in was where everyone in the video danced in front of the stage.

The video was basically made up of all kinds of dancers. There were African dancers, tango dancers, ballerinas, belly dancers, hip hop dancers ON SKATES (amazing), and the mosh people. We were there until 6:00. 10 hours of music video MADNESS.

The video was for a Classical Hip Hop group called "Nothing But Strings." They were black guys who played the violoin. The song is actually really good. I heard it a billion times that day, but I like it.

So be looking out for me in April/ May/ June on MTV, VH1, ESPN, and BET. Isn't that crazy???

Also, pray for Kevin. He got in trouble for something he didn't do. 

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whats sad is i dont know my own room number.

I'm hungry.

Since this is my last week home, I've been at every kind of appointment you could imagine. The eye doctor, dentist,gyno,heart doctor, etc. The heart doctor wanted more xrays of my heart and lungs, and they decided they want me to have an EDG or EGD or supm, where they stick a camera down my throat into my stomache and look around. Eek.

Sounds pretty interesting, but my entire digestive system has to be completely cleared of everything. I can only have clear liquids, AND, I might have to do another one on Friday, meaning I basically can't eat Tuesday,Wednesday, Thursday, or Friday (....... oh man ). Gee, will I be cranky. It's times like these where I realize that I take food for granted. For instance, I drove by Wendy's today, and usually I don't think anything of it, but today I just kinda stared at it and thought about how amazing Frosty's are, or their baked potatoes, or fries.... Or on a tv show they showed a loaf of bread for like a split second, and I just started daydreaming about bread, how much I love bread, all the different kinds, cranberry, banana bread , panera bread , olive garden bread, .... 

Like, right now, I am completely empty. When I drink water, I can feel AND hear it go down. Amazing! I've never been completely empty before....  My esophogus gets cold, and the water like gurgles through my organs. Its unbeliveable. I wish someone were awake so they could witness this with me. Like, my entire life, theres always been SOMETHING thats inside my digestive system, like an ongoing cycle since I was a fetus. Today I broke that cycle. For the first time. My intermnal organs are in shock. What do they do? For 19 years, never an idle moment, and all of a sudden, this? They're desperately begging for something to drop down, something they can break up, something they can roll all in chyme, something to distribute to the rest of the body, or something to just stick to my hip to make a nice love handle.

I'm gonna be worthless for the next few days, a pathetic pile of Leah. Seriously, what am I without food? It just doesn't make sense. I'm an EMPTY SHELL. That's what. Sheesh, what a bad idea. Oh and of course some people think its funny. Like today when Jess decides it's a good idea to just, out of the blue, state that she wants a quesadilla. I just glared, and that was the end of that. Or my mom, one of  the more terrible cooks in the world, who can only make chicken and spagetti, decides to make herself a nice dinner of chicken fried rice, knowing her helpless daughter has no choice but to keep suckin away at her lemon jello. Or how about the girl who chose to apply her ..frickin... cake batter flavored lip gloss....... oh my.... nearly lost my mind.... I just whiffed it... stopped what ever I was doing ..... wWHAT?! ... are you kidding me??

To help the process of clearing everything out, I had to take a laxative. Now, you may think this is funny, but I'll never be the same. Mom told me it would taste bad. Ok,  I've done this before with medicine, I can handle this. We've all been doing this since we were kids. You got the little cup with the red stuff in one hand, a cup of water in the other. You crack your knuckles, get all prepped, practice the wrist flick, do the countdown....So i was all set. But as I threw it back into my mouth, I don't know what happened. I can just tell you it was the worst taste I could ever fathom in my human mind. I'm convinced it was water from hell. The red medicine in the little cup would taste like a milkshake (mmm milkshake) compared to this. It could have been toxic waste. Im surprised my flesh hasnt burned off or anything. And it wasnt just a one-time thing, I had to take it over and over.... I honestly have memory gaps of between the time of throwing back the laxative to to realizing I have a bottle of Propel water shoved in my face, choking on it, Propel dripping down my face. I never knew I could chug a bottle of water so fast. Now I don't know what happened back there.... maybe my mind blacked it out... I think I shed some tears....but I know that I'm a changed woman. There will be a little less skip in my step. I'll smile a little less, laugh less often at parties, I'll tend to be alone, become more subdued....

I apalogize for this entry, and promise a better one when I reach a state of homeostasis and am back to my senses.